Random Night Thoughts #1

Well I am sitting here thinking to myself, "why do I let things get to me?" I'm tired of stressing over any and everything. Life is too short to be thinking: "what if I did this, why did i do that, why, why, why, what if , what if, what if?! For majority of my life I did things to please everybody, or to keep a certain image, because I'm constantly thinking, "What are they saying about me?" Well I have gotten over that hurdle when I chose to go natural(with hair of course). However, I want to do much more and I want to see much more! I am not a patient person! I want everything and everyone to be MINES!! I want a house, a family, a car, a wonderful husband, EVERYTHING! Everybody say, "oh you're young you have your whole life to get those things." Well I don't want to be old and out of shape when I get them. What can I do now to get there?! I feel like I have been cheated in life. I have done everything right. I swear it is so easy to trade your soul for the DEVIL, but I would never do that. I pray and pray for things and I know it takes time but how much time. Things are falling apart and I can't fix them all by myself. What am I doing soo wrong?! Unlike some people, I can find fault in some of the things I do, but how long will I have to be punished for it!!!!